WARNING!!!! If you have not read the book yet, you probably don't want to read this because it is spoilery!!! Also, I warn that I wrote this right after reading the book, so it's probably emotionally jumbled... But it's pretty much exactly how the book made me feel, so... Here you go:
Now, I've heard from some people that they thought Mockingjay was too dark, and too bloody and um... Did you read the first two? It's a bloody story. It's a horrific story. As I said above, it was emotionally (and in my case) physically devastating. I can't explain to you how much I want to throw up and curl up into a ball and weep and retch. Mostly, because I don't think any of you want me to explain that to you.
Now, I don't like watching documentaries of war, I don't like watching war reenactments, but I've seen them. And when Collins was describing, toward the end of the book, the rush of the Rebels, the Peacekeepers, the innocents, all tangled in a mess of shooting and death... I wasn't thinking of Panem. I saw flashes of World War II, I saw the concentration camps, I saw every war that the stupid Human race has ever gone through...
I don't watch the news, I don't read the newspapers, I don't listen to the radio. Why? I can't deal with real life stuff, because I can't stop war, I can't stop people from dying, I can't do anything from my home here. But I can read about Panem, and I can read about their rebellion and I can retch and cry over them... And I wonder why that is.
Sitting here I'm tapping on a computer, a laptop, one that I own. My sister owns two laptops, my dad has one, my brother has one, plus we have two other computers. I'm listening to my sister douse herself in water, taking a shower- while people die everywhere because they don't have clean water. It made me see my life in a way I never, ever, wanted to see it. If my world were the same as the world that Collins describes, I would not be one of the districts. I would be part of the Capitol. Sure, I feel bad about stuff, but I'm okay staying where it's safe, and cold, and boring.
And that's the thing about books, about stories, about literature. It takes our world, re-names it, re-labels it, and shoves you inside to live in it. Really live in it. And it can either unaffect you, leaves you able to go back to life unchanged. Or a story can make you think, stays on the surface of your skin, but it fades after a few days. Or a story can completely ruin you, devastate you, cause you to fall flat on your butt and really look at life and ask 'Why?'
Another thing I did not expect from this book was the fact that it made me jealous. Yeah, go figure. But you see, Katniss lives in a world where it has already happened. The Capitol already took over, District 13 already rebelled... But I'm living in a world where that could easily happen, and there's nothing I can do to stop it. As far as I know, my children could live in a world very similar to that, and there's very, very little I can do about it. It reminds me of a quote I heard from someone around the blogosphere that I am not going to quote right, but he was saying that dystopian fiction is getting big right now not because it's a future that might happen sometime, but because it's a future that could be theirs.
So instead of being completely depressed (though, I still will be emotionally wrecked tomorrow, which is wonderful since I have to go to work), shouldn't I let this Story remind me to be careful about life? I still have my sister, I still have my family. I don't have to be psychologically ruined and scarred for life. I can still find a way to live my life with Meaning.
Katniss and Peeta, though severely mangled in so many ways, were still able to have some sort of decent life. And that's the thing. This story is not completely depressing, there is that ever-present light of hope.
It reminds me of the power of words, and I can only hope that one day I can do justice to that Power.
And though some would disagree with me, looking at the world through the eyes of Mockingjay, it leaves me ever more grateful that I'm not in control of the world. 'Cause even if sometimes God confuses my brain out, I still know He's in control, and I know He can use things like this book to wake me up and get me moving again.
Yup. Those are my rambly thoughts. Thanks for listening to me rant *smiles and nods off to sleep*
10 comments:
I didn't read this post because I haven't read ANY of The Hunger Games books yet. I'm remedying that soon! I just wanted to say hello and I hope you have great weekend. So...
HELLO!!! Have a fabulous weekend, Naomi!
the violence and the darkness doesn't typically bother me. What always gets to me are the moments of peace and love mixed up in darkness - (ie, making the book at the end)
Wow...I hope my book has that effect on someone, someday!
Ive never read suzanne collins trilogy, but I am certainly curious now!
Powerful post! I am like you. I don't want the news or read the paper because they are too painful. I guess I prefer to live in a bubble of denial. We'd probably be neighbors in the Capitol. :-)
I glossed over most of this post so I wouldn't read the spoilers, but I love how you wrote about the power of language. Reading something that hits my emotions always satisfies me, even if the plot didn't go the way I wanted it to.
I do not think the book is particularly dark. Or bloody. I've read a lot of books like that. And it does makes me think. It makes me realize how ignorant most people are. So, I do watch the news sometimes. I do look through the newspaper every now and then.
The Hunger Games was like every other dystopian novel I've read. It was horrifying. Mostly because it's entirely possible. But it opens your eyes. It makes you realize how fragile life is. How fragile the society you live in is. And sometimes it's scary. 1984 was one of the freakiest books I have ever read. Right up there with The Hunger Games.
And the reason I read books like that, is because I WANT to know. The truth. And the whole truth. Yes, devastating things happen. Have been and always will, probably. It makes you grateful that you're not part of it. And it hurts that you can't do anything about it.
If a tree were to fall in the middle of a forest, and nobody was around to hear it, did it really fall?
Ignorance is bliss.
But not all the time.
Wow. Just wow. You are crazy talented, sis.
Hi, there,
I watch the news and I read murder mysteries. I have not read any of the Hunger Game Trilogy, but reading your synopsis would not spoil reading them for me. Many times I have read reviews or opinions of books or of movies, but read the books or watch the movies anyway and decide for myself if I like them or not. I find what you have written quite interesting. I had not even heard of the trilogy until I read about them on someone's blog. Thanks for the opinion on it and your reaction to it. Best regards to you, Ruby
Loved, loved, loved this entire trilogy for the fact that it stays with me and keeps me thinking long after the fact. We don't live in a dystopia, and yet today we celebrate the 9th anniversary of 9/11. Scary things happen that no one can control, and worse, that are senseless. One thing I really liked about the books are how Suzanne Collins handles Katniss' perspective. She is not at all an optimist, but has hope. She is not a pessimist, but is realistic about the horrors going on around her. At times, her emotions are simply removed from the situation and she "knows" she should be feeling more deeply than she is about things, but she can't. We don't agree with all of her decisions, but she is "real".
Sorry, everyone. I forget to tell y'all how encouraging some of your words were, and how much I love that people from all over the place can all be touched by the same thing. :)
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